Unfinished

"Gaudi, to his credit never gave up his dream. But that's not usually how it goes. Usually it isn't a speeding bus that keeps the brown, pointy, weird church from getting built. Most of the time, its just too difficult, too expensive or too scary. Its only once you have stopped that you realize how hard it is to start again, so you force yourself not to want it. But ITS ALWAYS THERE. And until you finish it, it always be" - Ted Mosby - Season 6, Episode 3, How I met your mother. 
I just love this episode more every time I watch it. It says so much and so the way it should be said. Unfinished is not good, its itchy. Could be anything- a fight, love, affair, commitment, friendship, joke or for that matter work. You name it and see there is no exception. Things, emotions, people need closure. It stays as long as you do, that's true.
But you know what the best thing is- since you have it in you, you can do it anytime. Sure it takes courage, consistency & will but ya its gonna be a great fun, trust me, more than it ever was. You are gonna love it.
Just don't let it go this time. Mind it! its a part of you, you always wanted to be. Its a SUPER bliss.
So, if you may, take a break, look at this word 'unfinished' & flow through your thoughts. You will surely find the way to your own customized bliss. You better grab it tight this time & give it a closure. I am gonna do the same.
And as Marshal says- 'You cant let fear steal your FUNK'.
And you better see this episode to make more sense  ;-)

Whatsay

Feels like doing nothing... but writing.
Life is crazy, situations are crazy, its not China but me. Its some hell of a turn. See me sitting in the middle of a crowded street near my hotel... a place where many street singers have just sang, the melody is still in the air.
Writing was  a hobby, commercially :) but today its a need of the hour, my partner and an addiction.
As mind is going on an unexplored path that feels like meant to be.
I say, I will go far n far many places, writing on and on...
All this feels like so unreal but yet a truth of life... A plot made for me to play in.
Its like a blink of an eye and everything is different... No idea, what, how n why... everything is extreme!!!
Mind is looking for something- no reasons- no questions- just some bit of answers carrying along.
Looking for the questions that lead to these answers...
Its tricky though- wonder I will be able to get them.

Is this all real- whatsay.
Right now, two chinese words in my mind-
Howdy
Mewanti

Oh yaa another one just popped up--- BIN BIN, A chinese Chic  :)

Lots behind!!!

Hi

From quite sometime now, have been writing on my mind...
Then there was a 'pal' of freedom and relief...
Suddenly I Feel like getting it all to the screen all at once!
Lets see whether I will be able to sketch a clear picture...
x

From my 'diary'...

Time is unusual as it has always been. Only the difference lies in the frame of reference. Days pass and your frame of reference starts widening in all possible directions. The quantum is not just decided by the pace of life but with the rhythm of life. I had hardest of them within my frame of reference. Past 4 months and it seems like a big time experience. Structured really well 'up' there, optimum proportions of all tastes, although at few moments I disagree on 'optimum'.

A lot of new things have happened. The best one... no the second best one (will let you know lil later about the first one) is that I have started writing again. I shouldn't have a better proof. Well, its a long story (short)- not in terms of moments but the depth of life- a whole set of learnings and experiences in each of them. Believe me its worth narrating.

I will gather every inch, count all smiles n tears and revisit each milestone touched...

Life is too 'unmessy' !

Hey folks

Dint show up for so long... Well, was a thoughtful step not to, while I get my mind on track. Yep, was out of mind... some career issues! Anyways the thing is finally I did it! I mean I am here again clicking down. What made me did that... well; take up a lil background first!!! Life is a too ‘unmessy’: I know this isn't a word. But actually, there is nothing to mess with so unmessy and believe me folks it’s much tougher than the messy one. What is it like... lets see; it’s like the retired youth! Wake up in the morning with a motivation of filling your stomach with your favourite breakfast and and... nothing else. Then have a thorough time with newspaper while getting enriched with Vitamin D, u know what I mean. Then get along with lil cleanup stuff, room, cloths etc. Finally heading for lunch and thereafter... nothing! But I have by far made it interesting while doing Shopping and eating A LOT... with a dipping balance n accelerating health.

Its that point of when you go through your contact list at least twice a day to scroll someone you can talk to, even though its been ages you have seen him/her. Well, so while in the progress of messing of my life, I found a wonderful 'pal' as I say. This is where I picked you up in the start. Nothing big, nothing new, not even special, we see all these around but have forgotten the times when we use to sit n chat there for hours, take our dolls and let them enjoy the ride! Sad while scolded for spilling the glass of milk while fighting with your brother, you let your tears out and same place from where mummy kissed and picked you up... The SWINGS!!! You can’t resist them once you are on them... literally they are the ‘to n fro’/ ‘round n round’/ ‘zumm down the path’ but something makes them special. They make you talk, to let out as if you are a child (again) or can I say they take out the child within you. You can dream, plan, solve or can just ride as per the customisation. While sitting there I could see the changing colours of the environment. It actually happened. Actually there is a time in the evening (today it was 5.35) when there are the most dynamic moments. You close your eyes, and then open you find an entirely different colour. I started with the golden dazzle at 5.35 then a slow blink orangish golden, then a deep yellow followed by yellowish orange. Finally I could see bluish purple. While that was the 'pal' I decided to share. N u know what folks this was the best time invested with this 'unmessed' life. I am pretty sure, will figure something out! Till then enjoy... New Year is heading, almost sitting on the nose :) Have a blast!

The best is yet to be discovered!

A 'pal' with a close friend just reminded me of a thought about relationships. Relationships, consider any mother-son, mother-father, brother-sister or any precious one you are blessed with. I believe, each one of them is absolutely as I say 'de novo': a single specimen of its kind in the universe. Why? because it's the two individuals who make em are unique and so their synergies. Try n put some rules developed from mock relations or so called 'replicas' that actually never exist, may be you work best with them, but you will miss the 'better than the best' simulations.

Experiment! as much as you want. Because, its then, slowly the relationship will dissolve in the original auras of two and will pour. It will fit in the mold -made for each other... or some may call it as per your destiny! n then you will realize the true sense. The real face of relationship is always beautiful. We, many a times or for that matter 'generally' make it so artificial. The thumb rule believe me is 'Never Compare' coz the best is yet to be discovered by you!

*This was a 'pal' discovered while a morning mind it, 'after-breakfast' walk.

Should I? or Should I not?

Decisions and decision making: tough job for many of us including me. I always use to think I am bad at decision making measured in terms of time and consequences. Although mainly ‘time’. But I recently learned something very different from what I believed. Sometimes or rather many a times, the process-timing in decision making actually fills the gaps through a deep thought process involved. You rationalise, you debate, you object, you actually discuss the matter with ‘yourSELF’ and here is the focus. Basically decision is generally all about convincing yourself on one side of the situation good enough to overcome the opportunity cost of the other side. So while this convincing is done, you actually clear out various facets and discovers a lot about yourself. Just wait for a moment after you have seriously taken a decision, critical enough, watch yourself and it will tell you many things. Every decision making process leads you towards maturity which is nothing but an art of handling diverse types of situations with ease. Another view to the decision making is about the ‘recency’ i.e how recent and genuine at the same time, you can be. Many people feel, the person who takes fast decisions is at a better-off position. May be at times, but, not always. Its all about the criticality of situation you are into. Consider a decision: to wear a dress in another’s wedding vs. in your wedding vs. a partner for your wedding. It also depends upon a person’s priorities.

Well, finally I believe while taking a decision ‘Be Yourself’… earlier you will be, more will be your decisions synchronised and appropriate. Because you know ACTUALLY what you are. Also, whenever you think you have taken a critical decision by yourself, give some moments ‘pal’ to them and you will see a better assimilation for the next time. As I always say, collection of such ‘pal’ leads to a healthy experience. Enjoy nurturing yourself nearer to self-actualisation every time you pick an opportunity to DECIDE.